one word to really summarize the way im feeling now.

for the past few days sobrang drained ako dko alam bket. kung tutuusin kakaunti lamang ang aking mga nagagawa.

pero ngayong araw na ito. naramdaman ko ng todo ang pagkapagod. mahaba-haba to at walang kuwenta. bahala kayo kung gusto niyo basahin. but i just want to let this all out.

things i did for today:


sobrang pagod nako. at gagawa pako ng sad namin. mali mali ata ginagawa ko. syet naiiyak nako. :(

ang init init ng pakiramdam ko at ng likod ko. pagod na kamay ko. sakit ng paa ko. punta pako gateway bks :( may errand to do for my mom.

at! for the whole day here is what i ate:
- limang subo ng rice na may kasamang dalawang slice ng luncheon meat for breakfast.
- isang cheese muffin na nabili sa figaro for lunch
- kalahating nescafe coffee na hindi naman nalusaw dhel sa sobrang lamig ng tubig at hindi nahalo ng mabuti at walang lasa dahil konti lang nilagay sa mug. para madrain ang cheese muffin
- at pancit canton ngayong pagkauwi ko.

ok pambawi sa pag hindi ko pagpost sa lj :P haha

Checklist ng mga Atenista:

(x) eat at Manang's [every year because of pe kumakain kami sa manangs :) yum! ]
(x) learn the alma mater [ok since 2nd year highschool memorize ko to. dream school eh. ang loser ba? :) ]
( ) get on the dean's list [haha i wish!]
( ) sleep on a bench [hindi ko pa nagagawa to. haha masubukan nga minsan]
( ) be a TNT! [dpat this year kaya lang hindi na pwede eh :( ]
( ) jog around the campus in the evening
(x) visit the art gallery [nung first year pa ako. with espi. nagpalamig dahil mainit. at may nakitang painting na kamukha si red. haha]
( ) know at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name [by face pwde?:P]
( ) get a Jesuit for a teacher
( ) itch from higad bites
(x) have gotten an F in something [paper and long exam haha]
(x) have taken a crap in school [secret nlng kung saan :P]
(x) watch a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game [ateneo lasalle game nung 1st year twice and admu vs adu patron :P live lahat :D]
(x) give a powerpoint presentation [always]
(x) study in the caf upstairs [always]
(x) watch a T.A play [required for fil]
( ) sit on the SEC ledge and watch the stars
( ) eat in Full House, Martha's Kitchen, and Ken Afford
(x) sleep in the lib [yes pag nagaaral ako nakakatulog ako sarap eh]
( ) visit Mr. San Andres [dont know kung sino cya sorry]
(x) go to the chapel [recollection and once for a mass]
(x) have gotten a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers in the middle of the quad
(x) cut class with your block to watch a movie [once lang ata pero madalas i cut chem to go out and eat :) ]
( ) sign up for those institutional (i.e. difficult but brilliant) teachers
( ) go to CERSA night
( ) have tried siomai rice [dko alam kung ano to haha ]
( ) learn how to smoke [no way]
(x) fall in love [haha]
(x) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib [once lang ata :P]
(x) play cards during your free time [every free time we have!]
(x) dress in business attire [mis defense :)]
( ) learn to stay awake for more than 24 hours straight [almost 24 hours same with kez :P haha good mood din ako haha]
( ) have gotten side comments from ASSOC
( ) take Saturday classes [nstp?]
( ) go to your immersion
( ) eat Food for After Thought sandwiches
(x) get a boyfriend/girlfriend
(x) take time to read the vandalism in the CR doors
( ) watch Minsan Lang Sila Bata” and “Macho Dancer” for class
(x) do a last minute paper [lagi naman eh]
(x) have spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures
(x) get exempted from final exams [sinwerte sa sci 10 haha]
(x) attend a college mass
( ) promise to quit smoking
( ) play hide-and-seek in the mini-forest
(x) know where the best restrooms are on campus [iso at mvp :) walang tao eh]
(x) join an org
(x) allow yourself to make mistakes
(x) take summer classes [every summer :(]
( ) admire the sacred heart statue in the evening
(x) make a video for a project [chong!]
(x) have a crush on a teacher
( ) attend a Jesuit retreat
( ) have gotten a parking ticket
( ) come to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes
(x) learn how to use the Bayantel pay phones [thanks to reg at natuto ako noong april 11 ata :)]
(x) participate in school activities
(x) catch the Blue Babble Battalion tryouts
(x) ride a tricycle on campus
(x) find a tambayan [caf up!]
( ) admire the marikina valley at night [morning ko lang nakita from sa tabi ng cervini haha]
( ) go drinking along Katipunan
(x) learn how to beg for a higher grade [haha]
(x) use your cuts wisely
(x) volunteer to be class beadle [kimberly! haha]
(x) had the worst lottery schedule for reg [1st sem 1st year]
(x) admire the trees on campus [at night pa ha]
(x) have forgotten about your freecut and gone to that class
(x) eat in the ISO canteen [1st sem 2nd year :)]
(x) be active in your org
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it
( ) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair
(x) learn how to cram [magaling ang block ko diyan!]
(x) sell tickets (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere [does org-sponsored concert count?]
(x) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate’s notes
( ) have accidentally seen a make-out session
(x) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge [meron lagoon lang haha]
(x) have dozed off in class in Bel right after a class in CTC/SOM/Comm. Bldg or vice-versa [psych]
(x) learn how to work with groupmates from hell
( ) perfect the art of parking on campus
( ) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus
(x) develop a love for sisig [wok and iso caf!]
(x) learn how to pronounce “AEGIS” properly
(x) have used typing rooms at the library
(x) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function
( ) have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries
(x) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella [1st year oh pati pala last sem :( ung colorful esprit umbrella ko :(]
(x) have used consultation hours properly
(x) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn’t break any equipment
(x) visit the Guidance Office
(x) and Infirmary

57 out of 90
ok marami pako kelangan gawin hahaha :)

ok matagal tagal nakong hindi naguupdate ng lj. nakakatamd eh hahaha pero eto na update ko.

UPDATE!!!

ayan nakapagupdate nako :)

magsusulat ako pag sinipag ako :P

well today is valentine's day. i have many friends who texted me "happy valentine's day" but i didn't replied. not that i'm bitter that its valentine's day, in fact i'm very much in love and happy :), but i'm too lazy and sleppy and tired to reply. (and i will not elaborate on this one haha i'm too lazy to type)

anyway. for the past 6 years of my life, i have been receiving flowers or/and gifts on valentine's day. but today, i didn't receive any. instead i received 2 cards and a pillow :) and today is my best valentine's day so far :) actually even if he had given me just a card, it would still be the best valentine's day. :) i really don't care about the flowers or the gifts, its just the simple things/gestures that matter. simple things that can mean so much more. simple things, just like the card, that can make your heart melt. :)
 

one word to describe my day: unproductive
one word to describe my feelings at the moment: okay?
one word to describe my feelings a while ago: cheerful:)

this day was so unproductive. i woke up at 9 am, ate breakfast, read harry potter's order of the phoenix for the 3rd time :), played suduko (magnetic), ate lunch at 12 noon then watched the uaap season 26 until 9 pm :) i watched how the ateneo beat dlsu in their last game in the 2nd round and spoiled la salle's record :) how they beat ue twice in the semis. god i miss those years. i really really miss the hail mary team. this may sound stupid and weird. even though i know who won at the end, i still cheered and got frustrated with their turnovers and missed shots, and even shouted ( just a little) when gec chia made the game winning shot over ue at the final 1.7 or so seconds of the game.

anyway :) i don't know why im not that much of a fan right now. i remembered wanting to study in the ateneo because i want to see them in person. :) i know it is a ridiculous reason. but then i realized that ateneo is a really good school. and wanting to study here is not just because of enrico or larry or any blue eagles but i wanted to prove to my dad that i can get in ateneo and actually graduate. i remembered years ago, we went to my uncle's house in cainta (where i'm staying right now). when we went home and passed by ateneo, i was staring at it like a beautiful doll in a shop that i wanted so bad but i can't buy it. i was staring at the blue eagle gym, the trees and the field behind it. then my dad said not to get my hopes up that maybe i will not pass the ACET. and he wants me study in pampanga (but he can't do anything about it  coz my mom wanted me to study in manila ) . i know he was just looking out for me, he said that , so that if i failed the ACET it wouldn't hurt so much. but i was dumbfounded by his words and got teary-eyed. i thought, this is what i want and this is my dream school, and i just want my him to support my decision and actually encourage me. but well i'm here :) i know i'm not that intelligent or i may not have a high IQ or i may act stupid. but i passed :) hahaha i am just really lucky and i know that God really loves me :)

i finished watching season 1 of prison break last night :) and it was goood :) i should have watched it months ago.

well i finished transferring my stat notes to my notebook :) and i plan to copy the eco slides to my notebook :) i hope i can finish it tonight :)

i'm feeling much better than yesterday. i hope all of this would go away.

we just had our stat midterms..and it was ok :) i answered almost all of the questions except for one problem. sa multiple choice naman, mga wala siguro ung sure na sure akong tama ako haha imagine 4 pts each un. pero ayos lang. at least mas madali compared sa 2nd long exam namin :) sana naman mataas makuha ko dito :) worse case ko eh pasado naman :) bsta sana maka B ako. kanina, napiga sobra brain ko. as in hanggang ngayon eh masakit ulo ko :(

anywaaayy

un lang :)  gawa muna kami theo paper :)

guys kung mahal niyo ako. tulungan niyo akong magdiet! ano magandng gawin para pumayat? at kung kasama niyo ako habang lunch or merienda pigilan niyo akong kumain ng kumain. my gawd i gained how many pounds in how many months, at kanina nalaman ko na 57 kg na ata ako or somthing puchaaaaaaaaaaaa kelangn mag 50 kg ako !!! wala lang  :D worried nako sobra sa state ng ktwan ko :| shet. ang luwag luwag daw ng balat ko :( patay daw ako pag tumaba pako :(( oh noooo

im just procrastinating :)

kaninang umaga, nagpa 2d Echo ako..at dahil doon, tumaas ang mga tingin ko sa mga nurses(in particular sa mga pumiling manatili dito sa pilipinas). at sa mga nagtatangkang maging nurse.

ganito kasi ang nangyari kanina...

gumising ako ng 630 at umalis ng mga 715. 730 dumating kami ng aking nanay sa philippine heart center. pagkapasok eh nagfill up ng forms at maghihintay na tawagin kami. pang-pito ako.

after 2 hours... ( dala ko nun ung stat notebook ko para mag-aral, pero wala akong calculator so nagbasa lang ako at sinulat sa isang pirasong papel lahat ng mga formulas )

tinawag na ang aking pangalan. eh d pumasok ako, bawal daw pumasok mommy ko so magisa ako. isang lalaki ang sumalubon sakin at nagtanong ng mga tanong. tinanong nya ako kung ok lang ba na cya gumawa ng 2d echo sken. eh d sabi ko ok eh malay malay ko ba kung anong gagawin dun. kala ko prng xray lang haha

anyway, eh d pumunta kami sa isang room na may curtain, bed at isang big machine. anyway habang gnagawa nya ung 2d echo sken,  eto naging conversation namin:

nurse: anong course mo?
ako: management information system po
n: ah, buti hindi ka nagnurse?
a: ah takot po kasi ako sa dugo ( pero sa loob loob ko, masyado na po kasing cliche ang pagnurse)
n: ah takot ka rin sa ospital?
a: hindi sa dugo lang tska sa pag inject ng mga ibang tao
n: buti at hnd ka nagnurse, boring dito sa hospital eh

pagkatpos ng ilang minuto may inapply cyang gel dun sa prng sensor thingy[?]

a: ano po yang inapply niyo?
n: para walang air na makuha
a: ah, buti memorize niyo po lahat ng mga procedures
n: siyempre kailangan , layo nga ng course na kinuha ko sa trabaho ko ngayon eh
a: ano po ba course na kinuha nyo?
n: medtech
a: ah
n: dito nako nagtrain sa phil heart center
a: ilang months po ang training?
n: 3 months
n: tapos hanggang ngayon nag-aaral parin kami, every tuesday may seminar kami
a: waw pagod un ah, ayoko na ngang mag-aral eh
n: may mga reports pa kami tpos mag-analyze ng case tpos may mga doctor din dun
a: [prng gs2 kong sabhn na, ah pareho pala tayo, nag-aanalyze din kami ng cases, pero napagisipan kong wag nalang haha ]
a: ahh , hirap naman nun hangang ngayon nag-aaral pa din po kayo
n: kailangan kasi, tpos pati mga bagong cases ng mga patiente kelangn din namin pag-aralan
a: buti hindi ako nagnurse
n: *tawa nasmile na ewan*


*nanahimik kami*

nung pagkatpos ng 2d echo

n: buti hindi ka takot sa hospital?
a: hehe wala naman po dapat ikatakot eh
n: ah ako takot ako sa dentista, takot akong magpabunot eh
a: ah nabunutan na nga ako ng apat
n:  ah nagbraces ka?
a: oo, hindi naman masakit magpabunot, may anaesthesia naman eh
n: hanggang cleaninglang ako eh
a: * nag smile nlng ako *

at natapos ang pag 2d echo ko.

ang friendly friendly ng nurse na un na hnd ko alam ang pangalan. bilib nako sa mga nurse ngayon ung sa mga dedicated sa trabaho nila at nandito pa rin sa pinas. alam mo un, kahit na mahirap (dahil lagi kang mag-aaral) ok lang sa kanila. kahit na alam nilang mas ok sweldo sa ibang bansa andito parin sila. kasi dahil sa kanila, may mga tumutulong sa mga doctor at nag-aassist sa mga patiente. kahit na prng ang scray ng trabaho nila.

naisip ko nga habang hinihintay akong tawagan para mag pa 2d echo eh buti may mga nagdodoctor pa kasi isipin mo, pagkatapos mo maggraduate ng college, magaaral ka pa ng ilang taon para maging full pleged doctor madaming libro aaralin mo at mga trainings na kelangn kuhanin. sabi ko sa mommy ko na buti may mga nagdodoctor pa sabi nya sken malaki kita pag doctor eh. pero isipin mo rin mga nasayang oras sa pag-aaral. pero dun sila masaya kaya masaya na rin ako :) kasi kung wala na sila nako pano pa tayo?

last year pumunta ako sa st luke hospital para magpacheck up dahil nagsusuka ata ako, sabi sken ng pinsan ko na nawala ung ibang magagaling na doctor, pumunta na raw sa ibang bansa. sabi ko sayang naman, siguro kung andito sila, mas marami silang matutulungan na kapwa nilang Pinoy. may point siguro sila sa pag alis sa bansa natin, mababa sweldo dito, sayang ung kagalingan nila dahil mas marami silang makukuhang pera sa pagtrabaho nila sa ibang bansa. pero wala lang, nanghihinayang lang ako.

anyway un lang naman haha :)

nga pala nagpagupit ako ngayon,,,not the cut i'm expecting, pero ayos lang i think? hahaha good luck na lang sa akin pag may nag comment na "kim hindi mo bagay" o kaya "kim mas ok hair mo dati" hahaha

ow nga pala, i barely made it sa  stat exam ko. pero d ako nadedepress. haha as kez said , ung mga ganyang bagay hindi dpat iniiyakan. dapat mag "move on" hahahah joke kez :p at may midterms kami sa mon., d pako masyadong nakakaaral. good luck to mee  and good luck to us.

sa lahat ng mga kukuha ng stat exam sa lunes:
tara at samahan niyo akong magrosaryo mamayang gabi upang gabayin tayo ni mama mary at ni papa God sa ating pagsusulit sa lunes :) at upang bigyan nila tayo ng konting sipag at tiyagang mag-aral ng mga formulas at iba pa.

p.s.

joke lang ung pagrorosaryo :) wala lang akong magawa, nakakatamad mag-aral eh :)

p.s.s.

sige mag-aaral nako :)